7/23/2005 12:26:00 PM

mood's swinging like nobody's business... pmsy... dun like this feeling... sch starting soon.. hate it.. 3 more mths to another a'level... sux... everything seems so sucky recently... juz a few days ago i was loving my life but now i dun.... seems to hate it... guess its juz the mood swing... think i've been pretty unreasonable these few days... always wan things my way.. cant accept wat others say n lots more... thinking back i think i'm such a bitch... or maybe i've always been like dat... haiz... mind's not functioning well... feel so sick.. nose is like a tap now... throat's burning like fire is inside... head keeps spinning... life's bad... dun like to be sick.. yet i'm not taking care of myself... dunno wat the fuck i wan... sometimes i feel dat i shld cherish myself.. sometimes i juz hate myself to the core... juz feel like nobody in this world cares abt me... haiz....

anyway was so bored yest becoz a stupid big moth flew into my hse so i'm "locked" up in my room... so i was surfing other pple's blog... ha.. found claris n xue er blog.. read thru the last few entries.. n they were toking abt the marriage thingy.. found it kinda funny... but i think dats wat gers always think rite? at this moment u think he's the 1 for me... n the next u regret thinking abt dat... haha... dats juz so me... sometimes i juz wonder how can anyone stand a bitch like me?? maybe for a yr or 2... but a lifetime?? definitely not... haiz... maybe i'm juz fated to be like dat... watever....

i feel dat something bad is going to happen to me... pls dun let it be wat i dread to happen...

7/20/2005 02:43:00 PM

momoing was great with the bowlers!! sorry i had to leave early coz my bb was feeling very tired... he woke up early to shoot an advertisement which earn him extra income... haha... anywya its ribena advertisement.. so next time u all see ribena ad wif pple behind playing bball.. its my bb okie... hahaha... momo was quite nice.. juz dat certain times the music kinda sux lor... n its my 1st time trying flaming lambo!!!! cool... had a bit of spinning effect.. other than dat its okie.. does it show dat i can take liquor better? hahaha i oso dunno... anyway it tasted nice... will try it more often.... hmmm... my bb's slping soundly now... n i cant fall aslp... juz like the last time when i was drunk n i couldnt slp... sianz.. shldnt drunkens slp more easily?? apparently its not my case... hahaha... damn sad.... how??? how can i fall aslp when i'm spinning?? hahaha drink somemore so i get totally knocked out?? or juz wait until the alcohol effect is gone??? sigh... i wanna slp but i cant get to slp....

7/17/2005 09:48:00 AM

ahhh!! i think i'm falling sick soon.... haiz... muz be all the late nites out recently plus the stupid sudden hot n sudden cold weather.... throats feeling very dry... feeling very cold n all of a sudden hotness.... hahaha.. watever... anyway been pubbing n clubbing quite recently... wed went wala wif june n jas... thurs came home late after toking cok wif harn june ben n liang at lido... haha fri went cocco latte wif vin n june.. i love the place... coz i like to chill at the 1st level there... ahha but vin hates it... hahaha.. too bad me n june loves dat place to chill... wahahaha....alrite... i think i;ve been spending way too much these few days... n my pay has yet to come.. wth lor.. work for 2 mths le i onli get $300+ lor!!!! i need my $1000+ pay!!! hahaha... broke... i shall stop shopping for a few mths... (crap: coz i;m going kl to shop instead) hee... nvm... 1 more wk of work den dats the end!!! hee... cant wait... n i'm going kl on the 1st wk of sch!! hee... yeah!!! but i dun wanna study leh... damn sianz... how to survive 3 yrs more in engine??? its killing me... haiz... i hate engine!!!!!!!